It was the day of my results and since the time I got up, the day did not go too well. There was tension in the air and everything kept going wrong. I knew I had not done my science paper well but I was hoping things may turn up OK. We waited for the time to check out my results that were supposed to be announced today at 12:30 P.M. Mom and Dad had a lot of hopes this time as it was; as they say it, a turning point in my career. Although I wanted to do different things in my life, I trust my parents. After my tenth class, they want me to pursue science and become an engineer just like mom and dad. My mom is a design engineer and dad a manager of the testing department in a software company.

The results were announced and when I checked, I could not believe my eyes. I checked if I did type my number correct and I retyped, hoping there might be some error. My score was way much less than what I had hoped and definitely, my parents will be disappointed. My mom had already discussed with all her friends and had decided which college she wants me to join. But not now, it may not be possible. Mom also checked my results and she was shocked to know and she did not speak to me.

I could not face her and I simply stepped into my room. I knew, once dad comes to know about it, he will be angry and disappointed too. By then, the phone started to ring and mom let it go to answering machine. Most of it was from my friends asking about my results. I felt ashamed, confused and scared and did not know what to do next. Strange thoughts started to form in my mind. I decided that I should end my life and free my parents of the misery of answering everyone who wants to know my score. I went to my room and sat on the edge of my bed and took out a pen and paper to write a note to my mom.

For a moment, I could not think. I sat blankly. So I just lay down on the bed in tears. After a while, I thought what will happen if I just end my life. Will that help my parents? However, all I could see imagining is that their heart will be broken forever. My mom who always wanted me to be happy will be shattered. I know she is unhappy with the marks, but I also know that she loves me more than that. Tinku, my younger brother who always fights with me, also adores me. He will be left all alone and will not have his big sister to correct him or anyone to take care of him and guide him. What kind of example will I be setting for him?

My father who loves me the most will be devastated and may not recover ever. Didn’t he just say a few days back to his colleague that he will do anything for my happiness and his children are the most important in his life? Is this what I want all of my family to feel? My marks maybe a small amount of pain and a temporary one, but giving up on life may cause them heartache for an entire lifetime. Oh my God! I realized that I really did not want to cause such a pain to my family. I do not want them to suffer forever.

My father who loves me the most will be devastated and may not recover ever. Didn’t he just say a few days back to his colleague that he will do anything for my happiness and his children are the most important in his life? Is this what I want all of my family to feel? My marks maybe a small amount of pain and a temporary one, but giving up on life may cause them heartache for an entire lifetime. Oh my God! I realized that I really did not want to cause such a pain to my family. I do not want them to suffer forever.

Finally I decided to face the situation. Try to work it out as best as I can. I woke up the next day deciding to face the day boldly. I freshened up and came out of my room and before I could talk to mom, my brother came to me and said, “Didi!, why did you not talk to me yesterday. Are you angry with me? Please do not be angry with me. I will give back your pen and will never touch your things. But please do not stay away from me.”

All, I could do then, is just smile at him, thanking God for giving me enough sense and saving my life from my own hands. I went into the kitchen dreading talking to mom. I took a deep breath and told her that “ I tried my best and am sorry for disappointing her”. To my surprise, she looked at me and told me that she has long forgotten about it and she already decided that it does not matter. She said “ I know you tried hard beta! I was just not prepared yesterday. But I know you and I always trust you. We always have other options and we can find what suits best for you, isn’t it? Come now, you slept without eating last night. Let’s have breakfast together.” Whoa! I really did not expect this reaction from her! But she told me that I need to make the right choice for what I want to study further as that is what going to make my future.

Today I sit here, being the Managing Director of an established Advertising Company. I travel all around the world and my parents are extremely proud of me. It all happened, because I decided to face a simple situation and work towards my dreams and do what I was good at. Life is never easy and we always find ourselves facing failure. But always remember, failures are not the end of us. Instead, they are the beginning of something new.