I Decided to Walk Forward 523

It was the day of my results and since the time I got up, the day did not go too well. There was tension in the air and everything kept going wrong. I knew I had not done my science paper well but I was hoping things may turn up OK. We waited for the time to check out my results that were supposed to be announced today at 12:30 P.M. Mom and Dad had a lot of hopes this time as it was; as they say it, a turning point in my career. Although I wanted to do different things in my life, I trust my parents. After my tenth class, they want me to pursue science and become an engineer just like mom and dad. My mom is a design engineer and dad a manager of the testing department in a software company.

The results were announced and when I checked, I could not believe my eyes. I checked if I did type my number correct and I retyped, hoping there might be some error. My score was way much less than what I had hoped and definitely, my parents will be disappointed. My mom had already discussed with all her friends and had decided which college she wants me to join. But not now, it may not be possible. Mom also checked my results and she was shocked to know and she did not speak to me.

I could not face her and I simply stepped into my room. I knew, once dad comes to know about it, he will be angry and disappointed too. By then, the phone started to ring and mom let it go to answering machine. Most of it was from my friends asking about my results. I felt ashamed, confused and scared and did not know what to do next. Strange thoughts started to form in my mind. I decided that I should end my life and free my parents of the misery of answering everyone who wants to know my score. I went to my room and sat on the edge of my bed and took out a pen and paper to write a note to my mom.

For a moment, I could not think. I sat blankly. So I just lay down on the bed in tears. After a while, I thought what will happen if I just end my life. Will that help my parents? However, all I could see imagining is that their heart will be broken forever. My mom who always wanted me to be happy will be shattered. I know she is unhappy with the marks, but I also know that she loves me more than that. Tinku, my younger brother who always fights with me, also adores me. He will be left all alone and will not have his big sister to correct him or anyone to take care of him and guide him. What kind of example will I be setting for him?

My father who loves me the most will be devastated and may not recover ever. Didn’t he just say a few days back to his colleague that he will do anything for my happiness and his children are the most important in his life? Is this what I want all of my family to feel? My marks maybe a small amount of pain and a temporary one, but giving up on life may cause them heartache for an entire lifetime. Oh my God! I realized that I really did not want to cause such a pain to my family. I do not want them to suffer forever.

My father who loves me the most will be devastated and may not recover ever. Didn’t he just say a few days back to his colleague that he will do anything for my happiness and his children are the most important in his life? Is this what I want all of my family to feel? My marks maybe a small amount of pain and a temporary one, but giving up on life may cause them heartache for an entire lifetime. Oh my God! I realized that I really did not want to cause such a pain to my family. I do not want them to suffer forever.

Finally I decided to face the situation. Try to work it out as best as I can. I woke up the next day deciding to face the day boldly. I freshened up and came out of my room and before I could talk to mom, my brother came to me and said, “Didi!, why did you not talk to me yesterday. Are you angry with me? Please do not be angry with me. I will give back your pen and will never touch your things. But please do not stay away from me.”

All, I could do then, is just smile at him, thanking God for giving me enough sense and saving my life from my own hands. I went into the kitchen dreading talking to mom. I took a deep breath and told her that “ I tried my best and am sorry for disappointing her”. To my surprise, she looked at me and told me that she has long forgotten about it and she already decided that it does not matter. She said “ I know you tried hard beta! I was just not prepared yesterday. But I know you and I always trust you. We always have other options and we can find what suits best for you, isn’t it? Come now, you slept without eating last night. Let’s have breakfast together.” Whoa! I really did not expect this reaction from her! But she told me that I need to make the right choice for what I want to study further as that is what going to make my future.

Today I sit here, being the Managing Director of an established Advertising Company. I travel all around the world and my parents are extremely proud of me. It all happened, because I decided to face a simple situation and work towards my dreams and do what I was good at. Life is never easy and we always find ourselves facing failure. But always remember, failures are not the end of us. Instead, they are the beginning of something new.

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Why is ‘Adoption’ unapproved by society for an unmarried single parent? 1373

I was preparing for sleep last night when my friend Asmi called me up. She was sounding flustered. More than flustered, there was a rage in her voice. It happens rarely that Asmi cries. She is 30, strong, self-reliant and a career-oriented woman. She didn’t marry because she chose not to marry. There is no catastrophic heartbreak story behind. Her focus has always been on her career. She is practical and staunched.

I understood her heart is really heavy else there has never been any place for tears in her eyes.

I quizzed her the reason.

“I am not crying because am sad, I am crying because am helpless and exasperated.” Asmi retorted.

I didn’t interrupt and allowed her to put her heart out.

“Preeti, I called my mother last night and had an argument with her.” she continued.

“I told my mother that I want to adopt a baby. Before I could say anything further she started yelling at me. She scolded me saying, Asmi already because of your decision of not getting married we are in pain. Why are you adding troubles to our lives? If you really want to adopt a baby just forget us. We have to live in this society and will have to answer people around. You have always done whatever you want but this time you are crossing your limits.

If not today, maybe tomorrow you will get married. Who will marry a girl with one child? Such things appear good in movies only. You better start focusing on marriage now. Preeti, My mother wasn’t even ready to listen to my thoughts”. Asmi started sobbing.

I really had no words to console her. Her thoughts were irreproachable and valiant.

But we cannot even disregard the fact that we live in a hypocrite society. When celebrities like Sushmita, Angelina, Sunny and more adopt a baby, we eulogize, lionize, praise their thoughts and we consider it as an act of kindness. We appreciate their humanity. We deduce that they gave a new life to someone. But when anyone from our own house even thinks of adoption we make them go through ignominy by coming up with the questions like is there any medical issue? Are you not straight? Why don’t you marry and then plan your own baby? Why are you trying to shame your parents? Why don’t you understand this baby won’t be your own blood? Are you kidding? Etc.

I’ve read somewhere that parenthood requires love and not DNA. I wish we really understand that. Your genes won’t define your family, our family is built with love care and respect. There are many people who do have a heart for adoption but fear comes in between. Fear of society.

I wish people understand that adopting a baby whether you are single or married isn’t a crime.

Adoption will not only give a baby a family but will also give us a special feeling. A feeling of being human. Probably the purpose we all are here for, giving life a life.


Movie Review: SIMRAN 2777

Queen, Tanu Weds Manu, Tanu Weds Manu Returns and now Simran, Kangna is on a rout, she has proven time and again that she is one of the best actresses available today. She has made a mark for herself in the film industry synonymous to that made by Sridevi, that, of doing movies which are female-centric, of movies which revolve around themselves (Judaai, Chaalbaz, Lamhe, Laadla to name a few). The only difference though being, all the movies had an extremely strong supporting cast. Kangna has to be given accolades to run a movie entirely on her very own shoulders, and this is not the first time either, we bow to you Kangna, you deserve the Best Actress Award for this one.

Kangna who plays Praful Patel is a gujju girl staying in Atlanta who likes herself be called as Prafff. Praf has a typical Gujarati accent and all my Gujju friends are going to love the Gujarati dialogues the movie carries, I know Gujarati and so I enjoyed it thoroughly.

Kangna is introduced from a housekeeping scene mopping and wiping floors and tables, there is just so much genuineness in that scene, it’s great to watch her there. When she goes to Vegas, her sleazy lines such as “are you tired, because you were running in my mind” are some great moments that bring about here innocence and wickedness both out at the same time.

In the red dress in Vegas, she looks gorgeous, she dazzles and ravishes like a diva and is super cute when she puts on her very native gujju accent “Halo, I aem Praeffff…” she just steals your attention away throughout the movie. A song in the movie titled “Lagdi Hai Thaai” sung by Guru Randhawa aptly describes what Simran is in the movie.

The best thing about this movie is that it has a good storyline and director Hansal Mehta pulls it off amazingly with Kangna. The first hour of the movie just zips its way through with Kangna showcasing her bubbly self, her expressions at an expensive store, her bargaining at the street shop and then her equivalence of the pink champagne and fries at the bartender, there are too many funny and hilarious moments. It’s the second half that becomes a tad serious but since the movie is almost 2 hrs, it doesn’t feel to be stretched at any point of time.

There are some points where you wonder if it is really possible to learn a bank robbery from YouTube and execute a heist, but those go in the movie stride and you really don’t mind these.

The movie touches important points related to the American Dream that much of our Indian Community has and exposes that it might not be true for everyone, it may turn out to be just a Dream for some. The nagging father of Kangna performs well and Sohum Shah is where I think a popular Bollywood actor would have benefited more, but Sohum looks original, he is simple and he looked like a studios guy from a small town in Gujarat, he does justice to his role.

But it’s Kangna and Kangna and Kangna stealing away the show, she is setting new benchmarks which are extremely difficult to surpass when it comes to ACTING. She is fantabulous and the heart of this movie.

She carries it on her shoulders all alone and she delivers a power-packed punch.

Music is good and hummable.

There is actually no one else to talk about in the movie, the movie has absolutely no supporting cast, but trust me, it wasn’t needed as well. The movie is about Simran, and it talks about Simran, hats off to Kangna, this one’s a Kohinoor in the QUEEN’S CROWN. 🙂

All in all, it’s an extremely light and a different movie with awesome Acting by Kangna. Watch it for Kangna.

Rating: 3.5/5.0

(0.5 points extra only and only for Kangna)