Identity 2

Amyara was lost in her thoughts as she looked out of the window of her apartment which was on the 3rd floor. Being from a small town she was looking at the adjacent high rise buildings with amaze. She was looking at the car parking watching people rushing for their offices, children who were forced to run by their mommies in the fear that they will get late for the school.

Despite all the movement, the world never looked so stationary to her.

Mayank, her husband has left for his work and her house was quiet. But a storm of emotions inside her was making her guilty and angry at the same time. Amyara and Mayank have got married recently, shifted to this new house in Delhi. Mayank works as a sales executive for a renowned bank and also trying to set up his own venture in partnership with his friend Gopal. And Amyara wanted to pursue her dream of getting management degree from IIM.

Last night they had heated arguments as Amyara expressed her interest in pursuing her education and taking up a job to support her education.

With tears in her eyes and with a very heavy heart she got up from the chair on which she was sitting like a statue from past three hours. She went into the kitchen and find out that Mayank had left without having his breakfast. She was suddenly more guilty and started crying like a child.

She was not able to understand her mistake. She just expressed her desire and never wanted to hurt him.

“He should understand that I love him so much. But at the same time, I cannot let go of my dream of having my own ‘identity’…..”was all in her mind.

Mayank always wanted her wife to be a homemaker instead of pursuing her education or becoming a working woman. He married Amyara with thoughts that she is from a small town and she will be happy to stay at home while he, as a man of the house, will upturn all the stone by his hard work to make their life beautiful and comfortable.

“How can she even think of pursuing her education and working to support her education?”, he thought.

His male ego has severely got hurt.

Mayank was not able to concentrate on his work in the office. He thought to take a day off and he went out to meet Gopal, who mostly works from home as a freelancer software developer.

Gopal could easily guess that something was disturbing him.

Gopal brewed the coffee for both of them and sat on the chair adjacent to the Mayank’s chair. Without wasting time he directly asked him,”Is everything alright”. Mayank kept his eyes glued to the window on the opposite wall and didn’t reply. Gopal waited patiently for him to speak. After sometime Mayank cleared his throat and his pain started coming out in the form of words. Gopal was all ears to Mayank and didn’t interrupt even though he himself couldn’t agree to his views.

Whatever little Gopal knew about Amyara was enough for him to know that she deserved to pursue her dreams.

He remembered all the praises about Amyara, back at her place and the hardship she had to face to complete her masters in commerce.

With her mother battled with cancer, she couldn’t leave Varanasi to pursue her dreams. Though her mother expired during her final exams, she was not deterred from writing her exams and came up with flying colours.

He was listening to each and every word patiently. On asked his advice, he mustered all his courage and said,”The girl who is strongly determined to educate herself should not be caged, should be allowed to fly freely.” Mayank wasn’t expecting this reply and was shocked to hear that.

Mayank was disappointed and he left Gopal’s place. After wandering for some time he finally decided to go back to home.

Amyara has also sobered up by now after crying for hours. She decided to tackle this calmly as arguments on this will never make her dream come true.

On his way back to home, there was a chaos in Mayank’s mind. Will she ever be able to make it to the IIM? Nah! said his male ego. He has always looked upon Amyara as a homely girl from a small town.

“……Will she ever be able to make it to the IIM? Nah!”, said his male ego. He has always looked upon

“She is just a homely girl from a small town. Once failed, she will never have such thoughts again”, told his wicked side. So he took this as an opportunity to show Amyara that her place is at home and not among the intellectuals.

He bought some flowers and went home.

Amyara hurriedly ran to the door as the bell rang. She was perplexed to see Mayank holding the bouquet.

Before she could say anything, Mayank unwillingly apologised to her for his behaviour. Amyara wasn’t able to react at first then a beautiful smile ran on her face. The innocent soul failed to understand the motive behind the Mayank’s changed behaviour. The deceptive smile of Mayank won her heart again.

She ran to the kitchen and brewed coffee for both of them. The laughter, coffee and love made them both forget about the argument and everything seems to fall in place for Amyara.

After dinner, they both decided to go for a stroll.

Leaning on his shoulders while their fingers intertwined, Amayara asked Mayank what made him change his opinion? Mayank, without looking at her, replied,”I want to see you happy”.

Amayara closed her eyes and thanked her stars for having such a wonderful life partner. Little did she know about Mayank’s real intentions.

Amyara got lucky with her job search and bagged a job as an assistant professor of economics at the nearby college and also started her studies for CAT.

Three months passed quickly and Amyara set the perfect balance between home, studies and her work.

Mayank failed to find even a single complain about anything and was astonished to see her managing everything so perfectly. But he still wanted Amyara to fail to get admission to IIM and just wanted her to be a home maker.

Amyara was a hard working girl since her childhood and she knew how to fight odds.

She was getting praises for her work and home balance. Amit, her fellow professor, was also preparing for CAT and was willingly helping Amyara to prepare for the same.

Amit also persuaded Amyara to join the weekend classes where professional mentors can help her prepare better for the exam. But Amyara didn’t want to give any chance to Mayank to feel lonely because of her studies or job so she refused to join any classes on weekend.

Amit continued to help her as much as he can. Their friendship grew and Amit started liking her though he knew she is married but still he couldn’t resist falling for this girl who is beautiful, strong and determined. Her qualities irresistible for anyone to stop admiring her. More they spent time together more she attracts Amit. But Amit didn’t want to break their friendship bond so he hid his feeling from her.

Now only 10 days left for their exam and Amyara while marking the calendar realised it’s Mayank’s birthday in two days.

Though it was difficult but still she planned to threw a surprise birthday party for him. She planned everything and invited his colleagues, friends including Gopal.

On his birthday all the guests gathered before he could come back from the work. As the door bell rang, Amyara ran to open the door. Mayank was surprised to see so many people at his place.

The decoration, food and the hospitality of Amyara amused him and others.

But still, Mayank wasn’t happy. He could not take that this small town girl can do so much. He always wanted a wife but not like Amyara. He never imagined that a small town girl can be so much talented.

Amyara introduced Mayank to her colleagues. Mayank couldn’t hide his annoyance while talking to Amit as he knew he is helping Amyara to crack the CAT.

When fellow professors told Mayank that how Amyara and Amit both are working hard together to crack the exam, Mayank couldn’t control his emotions and lost his temper. He started hurling abuses to Amit. His Male ego outbursted and he started blaming Amyara for having an extramarital affair with Amit.

Amyara was baffled to hear such words about herself from her husband. She couldn’t believe her ears.

Other guests intervened and Amit left soon after. Amyara was standing like a stone there; confused and disheartened.

Soon everyone else left except Gopal. he was trying to calm Mayank down and was also feeling very bad for Amyara who was sitting in a chair unable to swallow down what she heard.

Mayank started again and blamed Gopal also for having an eye on Amyara. Gopal couldn’t take this insult and left the place.

Amyara failed to understand what she did? What’s her fault? And moreover why Mayank thinks that she is having an extramarital affair with Amit.

Mayank’s voice shook her further. He was completely drunk now. And his true feelings came out,” You can never reach IIM. I was waiting to see you fail. How can a small town girl ever think about it?”

Amyara felt as if someone has kicked her hard in her stomach. She gasped for air to breathe.

She left her place and went to her friend’s place.

Next day morning when Amyara returned from her friend’s place she thought Mayank must have left for work now. But Mayank was at home only.

Mayank kept quiet on seeing Amyara. Even Amyara didn’t say a word to him. She took a shower and left for her college. As she was reaching the door she heard Mayank saying,”Have fun with Amit!”. She ignored him completely. This fumed Mayank’s anger even more. He packed all the belongings of Amyara in the suitcase and when she came back from work he asked her to leave wherever she please to.

Amyara still didn’t react and silently took all her belongings and left.

When Amit came to know about it, the lover in him was happy to see their marriage falling.

At least now his love has a chance, he thought.

Amyara stayed in a lodge and gave her exam. She refused to bow down in front of the circumstances created by her husband. After writing exam she took a week’s leave and left for Varanasi to see her dad.

Her dad was heartbroken to know all that Amyara went through. He is the support system of Amyara and he came in full support of her. He respected her decision of taking divorce from Mayank.

Mayank got the legal notice from Amyara’s lawyer about separation. His male ego got hurt again. He immediately called his father, Mr Sinha, and told him how Amyara is having an extramarital affair with Amit and now giving divorce to him. He didn’t narrate anything about his behaviour to his father.

Mr Sinha fumed with anger and went to Amyara’s place in Varanasi. Amit, who came to meet Amyara, was also there. Mayank’s father misunderstood the situation more on seeing him there. Mr Sinha also abused her.

Amyara’s father signalled her to be quiet. She went inside her room. He left their place after cursing the father-daughter duo.

On the same evening, Mr. Sinha called Gopal to know why he didn’t informed him earlier of all this nuisance.

Gopal told all the truth to him and now he was so ashamed of his behaviour.

Next day morning as he got down from rickshaw to go to Amyara’s house he saw Amit also getting down from the other rickshaw. He asked Amit if he likes Amyara? Amit confessed his love and also told him that he is unaware of Amyara’s feeling as he has never confessed his love to her.

Mr Sinha and Amit went to meet Amyara’s dad. Mr Sinha apologised to her father for not giving any chance to Amyara to speak and abusing them shamelessly. He also told them how ashamed he is for his son’s behaviour.

Mr Sinha held Amit’s hand and told Amyara’s father that after getting divorce from Mayank, Amyara should marry him and he is capable of taking care of her.

When Mr Sinha was telling this all to Amyara’s father she was on the door and she heard everything.

Everyone was shocked to see her. Amit went a step ahead and in front of everyone, he proposed Amyara.

Amyara’s father held her hand and said,” Today the situation might not be in favour of my daughter but I have raised her like a warrior. She will fight all odds and will always win.”

Amyara was in tears. She wanted to say so much but all she could say was,” I loved Mayank and all these incidences have left a void in my heart that will never fill up again. I needed a friend and Amit, you took him away from me. I have no feelings left for you too. I will not allow somebody to decide my identity.”

Amyara turned to her father,” Papa you have given me strength and upbringing that I can take care of myself very well. Please give me the keys of your printing press which is shut from a long time.”

AND Amyara decided to restart her dad’s printing press business to take it to new heights.

She found her ‘identity’ and didn’t let it shield by someone’s else…….


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Dating is cooler than a Relationship….Do you think so?? 1036

I am 101 % every one of you is going to agree with me on this – Dating is quite fun!! As it involves meeting new people, exploring new places with your gf/bf, the excitement of a new bond, those butterflies in the stomach. But during all this, somewhere deep down lays a sense of insecurity. Insecurity of losing your special someone because dating is not synonyms to the relationship. Where relationships have the commitment, dating doesn’t follow any such decree.

One of the most significant reasons that make dating cooler than relationships is commitment. It’s not easy to not make a connection and still be together. Many people think that settling down or being in a relationship can be boring, actually, they consider it as ‘Old school’. But you know what, if you never come under this league, perhaps, you will never experience the beauty of being in a relationship.

Relationships are not meant to be boring! In fact, being in a relationship makes your life beautiful and evolves you into a better individual.

Below are few reasons that’ll make you wonder how being in a relationship makes you a better person!

  1. A Relationship Rejuvenates You

Love is a very powerful feeling it makes us do things for others which we wouldn’t do for ourselves. A relationship changes you in a better person, your partner brings out the best in you. With your partner’s love and affection, they turn you into a better individual. Being in a relationship fills you with new hopes and aspirations.

  1. It changes your Attitude towards life

When single we usually only think about ourselves, act stubborn and resentful towards people and situations. But being in a relationship makes us think rationally and lowers down our ego and arrogance. It also invokes the sense of responsibility and a better understanding of life which we generally lack.

  1. You Start Feeling Good

The best part of being in a relationship is you start feeling happy and good about everything around. There is no space for stress or reasons to be depressed as two of you are always there to support each other and work towards the happiness of one another. Here, I would like to mention that this is the case of positive relations which are not forced.

  1. You Learn to Adjust

Every relationship demands adjustment, compromise, and sharing. When you get involved with someone the first thing which happens is you start adjusting according to your partners likes and dislikes. Slowly you start sharing your living space, you start making plans together and what not. being in a relationship teaches you how to express your love and care and how to keep your partners needs first.

  1. You Explore new things

The plus point of being in a relationship is your world expands, by this I mean you get to know about new things from you from a partner. You develop new likes and hobbies. You get exposed to a different kind of music, movies and if you both like reading then, books too ;). You also get a brand-new family and set of friends and cousins to hang out with.

  1. You feel Strong

Difficulties are part of life, we all face ups and downs, difficult situations in our lives. But having a partner by your side gives you the strength to fight any battle of life. Knowing that your partner has your back will give you the courage to go through any circumstances and come out with more positivity and belief that with that your partners help you can fight anything and everything

All relationships go through hell, only the real ones get through It …So, no matter how many girls or boys you have dated, there’ll come a time when you’ll realize the meaning of settling down with that special someone!

What Nirbhaya wants to appeal today for Praduman!! 4543

They ripped my body…

They ripped my dignity…..

They ripped my dreams…..

They ripped my life…………..and they are still alive…!!

If you remember me I am Nirbhaya, a girl who was brutally raped and left to die on 16th December’12’s night. I know it’s an old story now but I am here today because my soul is in pain and tormented once again…

I am suffocated, flustered and frightened too with news of Praduman brutally murdered and a little girl of 5yrs raped in their respective schools with in three days. My intestines were pulled outside my body and his throat was slit wide open….Oh Gosh!! You can’t imagine the pain and fear….Dictionary doesn’t and cannot have a word to describe what we went through..!

Okay, you said I was out for a movie at night… I was wrong and it was my mistake etc etc but I want to ask you today was Praduman also wrong in using a washroom of his school?? Was that little girl in a school uniform was wrongly dressed and out at a wrong time??

Please answer me……this goes to all those who are sitting on administrative chairs and are just concerned about how to remain seated on those positions forever. My question is to the lawmakers, to the ministers, to the officers….to the PM of this country.

Why can’t you frighten these monsters these devils like they frightened us? Me, Praduman…..&…&…

Yes, they frightened us to the extent that our souls are still trembling. Traumatize them…torture them as they did to us.

Where are you, the honorable human rights people?? Why don’t you stand with my and their and each such parent who has lost everything in their lives with us?

When you say ‘Human Rights’ its is for humans not for these demons. NO rapists have human rights…..

Give tortures ..give them trauma to the extent that each man with such sick mentality should get a shiver before even thinking of any such crime. Scare their souls…scare them to the hell…Do it NOW..NOW!

You named me…Nirbhaya(one who never fears)…let me tell you today…I was scared..really scared and I am scared today also. I am scared for each fellow girl…for each child out there…I am scared!

You made me celebrity over night. You named funds after me. No need of all this, if you really want to do something make your laws strict & deadly for rapists and molesters. No one should dare to touch anybody without his/her consent. Make my country safe for all women…for little ones. PLEASE!

Do what Yemen administration did to a child rapist and murderer. Punish them publicly…punish them as brutally as they were with us. It is my last appeal to you people.

Do it for me…for Praduman..for….for….

Do it so that there will be no more Nirbhayas and Pradumans…EVER!