You..me and Room number 102! 1859

It was a wonderful cold busy morning. Natasha was busy preparing tiffins for her school going kids. Running from kitchen to dining table in the morning was an everyday task for her. The little one wanted to drink his milk from mumma. So, she just took a 2min break and made Duggu finished his glass of milk.

So, the kids were off to school and Naren(her husband )was out on an official trip. She quickly gave breakfast to her MIL and got ready for her office. It was 9:30 am.

“Ma, come close the door. I am leaving for the office and I will be little late today,” she said. But, it was not a usual call, her heart was heavy and her hands shivered as she was coming out of the house.

“Achcha Beta,” replied her MIL and closed the gate.

Natasha took an OLA. Something was making her nervous and she could hear her heartbeat.

“Bhaiya, M. G Road chalo,” (her office was in Rajouri then why M G Road?)

She got down from the taxi and there was a big black Audi waiting for her on the other side of the road.

She crossed the road and Aman opened the door of that black beauty for her.

……..Wondering who’s Aman??

Aman is a dashing, handsome man who is also her old school mate. Natasha was also a simple, happy go lucky types, beautiful and attractive girl during her school days and had a major crush on him. But as she belonged to a conservative family, never shared her feelings with him and was married as soon as she completed her college.

It was a typical Indian household scene, she was never asked for her opinion. But as any other young girl, she also had dreams of marrying a handsome, good looking and successful man who could just admire her beauty and make her feel like a princess. But was married to Naren who was a short, heavy and regular guy from a middle-class family. She didn’t say ‘No’ coz she was not supposed to. 😐

Today, she is a mother of two & with 10 yrs of married life with Naren, she had no complaints. He was responsible, taking care of her and kids very well. Yet, deep inside Natasha could never love him coz he was not a match to her fantasy. But the life went on…….and so the emptiness inside her!

Just a month back, Aman joined Natasha’s office as the CEO and within no time the old school friends came closer and started spending time with each other. Life once again became a fairy tale for her. Aman was not only handsome but caring guy with an absolutely amazing sense of humour. Natasha really enjoyed his company and so did he.

Today was the first day that both of them decided to spend some time together outside the office.

“Where are we going?”, asked Natasha. She was looking absolutely stunning in a chiffon saree.

“To a place where I can dive into your eyes and nobody is watching”, said Aman with a fishy smile.

That smile made Natasha nervous..real nervous. Aman never talked romantic like this to her.

They just entered the gate of a five-star hotel in Gurgaon.

“Let’s go to a restaurant. Why here?” asked Natasha

Aman stopped the car and gave his keys to the valet parking guy. Held her hand and took her to the reception.

“ I am Aman Chopra and I have a booking here”

“Oh shit!! we are going to a room”, said Natasha to herself but could not say no to Aman.

“Natasha take these keys and go to room 102. I will be there in 5 mins”, Aman instructed.

She took the keys and took the elevator. She was Numb.

She opened the lock and went in. It was a superbly beautiful room as she used to see in magazines. She was amazed. She felt as if her wish is coming true.

Why am I nervous? Why I am not happy?……, thoughts were pondering in her mind.

And she sat on the bed. It was a soft, spongy bed with a beautiful plain pink coloured bed sheet on it. And she remembered her honeymoon, Naren had booked a small cottage to make her feel special and it had a pink plain bed sheet on the bed. She was dressed in a saree, shy and nervy.

Today again she is in a saree, nervous, cold and shivering but it was different ….really different….and what was to happen was conflicting..…

With thoughts and memories boggling her mind, a knock on the door and Aman was in the room. Natasha felt weak and frail. As Aman came near, her shivering got noticeable.

Should I do this…..what about Naren…my marriage….his trust…his love….my kids….family…what if they all come to know….my own conscience….. Will I be able to forgive myself…..…….

It was an utter chaos and noise in her mind.

Suddenly, it was quiet…..calm…silence as Aman held her hand.

He just said that “Natasha, I know you like me and have liked me since school days. I know you fantasize about your life with me. I know you have unfulfilled desires, I can see it in your eyes coz even I like you but……as a friend and as a true friend I want to tell you something. Can I?”

“ Yes, of course, Aman”, said Natasha with a low voice.

He continued,” Natasha I Agree that we all want to live our lives as per our desires but believe me, but sometimes situations are stronger than our desires. But, to betray our life partners in the name of fulfilling our desires or other fantasies would be really selfish. My purpose of bringing you here was just to make you feel what you are feeling right now. When you are not able to take this guilt for a few minutes now, how will you carry the burden of this guilt for life?  Naren is a good man and today if you cheat on him, maybe he doesn’t come to know, but what about your own conscience? Can you pay this price for the fulfilment of your desires? I am sure NO.”

Natasha could not believe her ears. This was all that she wanted to tell him. She held his hand and gave a kiss on his hand. It was not out of love but respect she was feeling for him.

“ I am so lucky to have Naren as my life partner and you as my bestest friend. Thanks buddy!” she smiled and got up to leave.

She reached home early. She was feeling so light and free.

“ Natasha, tu to late aane wali thi?” asked her MIL.

“Ma, aaj Naren wapis aa rahe hain to socha unka favorite dinner banau isliye chutti le li”, said Natasha with twinkling eyes.

She wore Naren’s favorite red saree to look her best for no one but Naren and cooked a sumptuous dinner that day. That night first time in her life she gave a sensual hug to Naren.

“Aaj kya baat hai…kuch alag sa hai!” asked Naren.

“Aaj tum bahut handsome lag rahe ho isliye”, laughed Natasha making her hug even tighter and felt to be his wife deep inside.

 

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“I Fear a Relapse”, Says Deepika Padukone. 1359

The trailer of the most awaited Padmavati movie was released making us wait on a tiptoe for the movie to be released soon which is actually on December 1st, 2017 (See the trailer here). While on-screen Rani Padmini fights for her honor, the actress who plays the role, Deepika Padukone is fighting altogether a different battle in her real life.

While shooting for the Happy New Year movie, Deepika was fighting her inner battle of depression. Although she did not realize it then. Her mother who came to visit felt there was something wrong and requested Anna Chandy, a psychiatrist from Bengaluru to talk to her daughter. Though Deepika ignored it for a period of time, she finally recognized her problem and took steps to cure it. However, in a recent event, while talking about the Jauhar scene of Rani Padmini in the movie Padmavati, she revealed that she lives in a constant fear of a relapse of depression. She said “ I don’t think, I am completely over it. There is always a fear of relapse as that phase when it happened is the worst experience in my life”.

Since her opening up about her condition in public, there are numerous articles written about depression and there are plenty of suggestion available for someone who is looking for help. But, the truth is a lot many of the population who are suffering from depression do not know that they have it and they need help. Most of them try to think it is nothing but stress, fatigue and they are over-worked.

Like Deepika said in one of her interviews earlier while talking about her feelings during the time, being sad and being depressed are two different things. When someone is sad, they look sad, but when someone is depressed, most of the times they hide it. They try to behave normally while the feeling of emptiness keeps nagging at them. You do not have to be poor or have to lose something in life to be depressed. Sometimes the feeling of depression has no reason.

How to recognize the signs?

When someone is depressed, you may notice certain changes in them. Such as,

  • Less interested in daily activities
  • Loss of appetite and weight changes (can lose or gain)
  • being angry and irritable most of the times
  • less energised
  • self-loathing
  • reckless behaviors
  • Change in sleeping patterns

These are some of the changes we notice in a depressed person, not for few days but on a regular basis. If you spot these in someone or if you are facing it yourself, get help. There is no age or gender who are affected by depression.

Recognizing and understanding the symptoms of depression is the first step to finding a solution. Once you know, meet a good psychiatrist and get help. There is no shame in finding help to cure a mental illness. We meet our doctors for physical illness. In the same way, sometimes our mind also need that extra help too.

Do not, I repeat do not ever be afraid to ask for help!!! Because you might be surprised that there are so many good people around you who really care and want to help you.

Marriage – the funniest ironical institution in India 225

Many people would not be able to figure out the mistake in the following figure. Well, there is no grammatical mistake, there is no printing error or any other fault in it. If you still haven’t figured it out, I have an answer for you, I would like you to face the ironical reality of the modern world or the 21st century where the thoughts and ideologies of Paleolithic age still prevails.

Women have always been considered as a pillar of the society, we have given her various names, we worship her, pamper her and consider her to be the live giver; there is nothing wrong in it. However, it blows my mind to see such kind of ideas still prevail in the society. I personally feel that a woman gets a chance to change her life, the first time she is born, the second time her life changes when she gets married and the third time she changes her life when she gives birth to a new life. But, amidst all this ebb and flow of life cycle, why is there a question that she needs to answer every time. Why is there a need to prove that she can equally love her parent and in-laws? Well, if you feel that I am proclaiming something different, then you must have a look at the picture here.

I find arrange marriages to be the funniest institution in India. Irrespective of the fact that I am a party to it, I still believe that it has some funny traditions and beliefs flowing in it. I would like to highlight a few-

  • The first thing that we say in India is, “Shaadi hamesha barabari ke khaandaan mein honi chahiye (One should get married in a family who is equal in status with the other),” Well, if that is true, why this equivalence is only restricted to money, why no one questions on thoughts, beliefs, ideas, vision etc. Yes, money is important to run a family, but imagine a situation where you have a big house, a big car etc. but both husband and wife are never on the same page. Is that the mantra for a happy married life? At least I don’t feel so.
  • Another popular phrase which we commonly here during the marriage is that “Shaadi to parivaaro ka mail hai ( Marriage is not between two people, it is the bonding of two families,” if that is so, why a girl has to put her in-laws first and ignore her parents. If that’s not the truth, I would again request you to run through the picture above. Why can’t both the families co-exist. Although, things are changing, the ground reality is different.
  • One of the common things I have heard is, “ Ladki ko sasural ke hisab se adjust karna chahiye (girl must learn to compromise and live as per her in-laws and husband),” there is nothing wrong in it and I too believe in it, but what if we tweaked this scenario, like both the parties can make slight adjustments so that everyone is happy and the guy or the husband doesn’t have to take sides.

What I have written is not new or neither revolutionary, I have actually started to find our society to be hilarious. We are never in a phase to create an equal world, rather we always pester on the fact that one has to be above, I think this hierarchical ideology is still haunting us since the time of Britishers. I don’t know how much change will come in the times to come, but, even if one person transforms after reading this, I will feel content.